I’ve gotten a lot of questions about where I’ve landed with my experiment on deciding to stop drinking. So, thought I’d share with all of you.
First I’ll say this because it’s important: I didn’t like my relationship with alcohol. I didn’t like that I turned to it for every occasion. When I was happy, sad, it was raining, it was sunny, when my kids were annoying or when they were amazing. It ALL called for a drink in my mind. I didn’t like that I was intentionally numbing myself instead of dealing with some crap I’ve had going on in my life. So I stopped. All together. It was surprisingly easy for me to stop. And I’m grateful for that. Hear me on this part: I am not/was not an alcoholic. There are those that struggle at a much deeper level than I ever have and if that’s you, stop reading here and continue fighting the good fight. I stand with you. 🤛🏼
Here’s where I landed:
After not drinking for over 100 days, I came to the following conclusion:
Alcohol isn’t necessary. It just isn’t. I can have a great night out with friends without it. I can have a nice night in without it. I can be fun without it. I don’t need it, and I definitely don’t need it when I’m sad.
I currently will have a glass of wine on occasion when the mood strikes when I’m out and about. Without guilt. However, I will no longer let myself drink when I’m sad, angry, or frustrated. I've figured out that is MY line. Everyone has a different one. And I’m grateful for this experience without drinking to finally find my peace in this.
So I stopped numbing. I stopped reaching for something that would make my insides feel calm just long enough to forget my troubles. Instead I started turning inside to do the hard work. To dig deep and sit with my own pain and frustrations and DEAL. -
So, months into this here’s my words of wisdom: Take the time to dig deep and ask yourself the hard questions. Know WHY you’re reaching for a drink and if it’s necessary. And in social settings, don’t be afraid to go without! It’s not scary. And you’ll be just fine. I’ll continue to do so often as well just because.
I found my peace. And I hope sharing my journey with you all helps you find you